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Post by Raven Sasura on Jul 17, 2008 15:13:48 GMT -5
"You cannot blame yourself!" she shouted, "if your brother dies, becasue you sent him to do something he could not accomplish, he had the choice to disobey an order, or more possibly, make sure he knew when to get out." she took a sharp intake of breath and smiled weakly. "If you blame yourself, you are only pushing yourself into self-hate, and that is not a path you want to go down, so please, for your own sake, do NOT go down that path."
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Post by Austenite on Jul 17, 2008 17:48:21 GMT -5
Ianto poured himself another tumber full of the amber liquid, but sipped slowly, thinking, "Why do you care? It isn't as if we have known each other overlong and you have reason to care."
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Post by Raven Sasura on Jul 18, 2008 10:43:47 GMT -5
"I care because I know how bad it can get. I don't want anyone else to get that bad." She said simply, hoping for no questions.
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Post by Austenite on Jul 20, 2008 18:27:37 GMT -5
Ianto took a deep breath, "I will not ask you what you mean, but I still want to know. I am positive that you will tell me if you choose. Still, I think it strange that you know nothing of me, yet you care."
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Post by Raven Sasura on Jul 21, 2008 13:45:12 GMT -5
"Thankyou." She said solemnly, he was fine not knowing. Her past troubled her even though she knew that millions of people's were a lot worse, and yet it was just like her to find the worst in her past.
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Post by Austenite on Jul 21, 2008 17:52:43 GMT -5
Ianto still sat sipping on his brandy, waiting for her to say something. He felt awkward for the first time in years.
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Post by Raven Sasura on Jul 22, 2008 10:43:59 GMT -5
Lauren shifted, she felt as if she was expected of something. "I'll say three words, murder, rage, me"
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Post by Austenite on Jul 22, 2008 15:19:25 GMT -5
Ianto chocked on his brandy. Sputtering, he said, "What?!"
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Post by Raven Sasura on Jul 23, 2008 7:46:00 GMT -5
"You don't need to know." she said blushing, "you don't want to hear."
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Post by Austenite on Jul 24, 2008 13:17:49 GMT -5
Digging in his waistcoat pocket, he pulled out a handkerchief and whiped at his mouth, "Damnit woman! You tell me now that you caused me to make a fool of myself!" His voice was not nearly as harsh as his words seemed to make it.
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Post by Raven Sasura on Jul 25, 2008 2:52:10 GMT -5
She looked down at her hands, "I'm sorry."
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Post by Austenite on Jul 25, 2008 14:45:01 GMT -5
Ianto cursed his semi-sober state, "No, it is my fault. I should not have said that, but will you at least elaborate now that you have at least that much out. It is horrible of you to leave someone hanging on a thread. I told you my situation and what brings me to this tepid inn. Now it's your turn my dear."
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Post by Raven Sasura on Jul 26, 2008 6:09:36 GMT -5
"As you may have guessed, I love the idea of death, and you could guess I'm an emotional person, who takes things to the extremes of a situation." she began, "Well, one day, my parents were tearing at my last thread, and I was cleaning at the time, so I had knives at my disposal, finally after so much pressure was on that last thread, it snapped, and so did I. And I used the knife, I was distraught, so did not witness them dying, instead I ran away. But I know they're dead because of the news that carries around so easily."
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Post by Austenite on Jul 26, 2008 14:46:47 GMT -5
Ianto was astonished, "Erm..." At a loss for words, he asked, "So how do people usually handle that?"
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Post by Raven Sasura on Jul 27, 2008 4:59:38 GMT -5
"Well I guess most people would eventually go mad, and who it to say I haven't, they would feel guilty, which I do." She said, "maybe people would hand themselves in and wish for thier own death. But I just try and live with the guilt and blame, that is why I don't want you to go down the path of blaming yourself, because you'll end up like me, trying to stop people killing themselves, even though I want them to, it's a confusing life, and as mentally strong as I believe I am, I find it too hard to deal with."
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